What's Wrong With Me?

Since I've started this new medicine, Viibryd, I've had some up days and I've had some down days.

Whenever I've had up days, they've been very good.

Whenever I've had down days, they've been VERY bad.

Like on Sunday, I was having a down day.  Something upset me the previous week, and I realized that things were not right.

I've recently said some things that I shouldn't have.  I've been pushing people out of my life.  I ruined another friendship.  Possibly three friendships.

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Yesterday I asked my mother to come up to Capital.  We went to get pizza and talk.  I then skipped three classes (two yesterday and one today), and came home to relax.  I was experiencing some chest pains because of anxiety.  I slept about 14 hours.  I went to bed around eight o'clock last night and woke up around 10 o'clock this morning.

I've calmed down today and I'm ashamed about what I did.  I asked God to forgive me, but I'm still ashamed and hurt about what I did.  I'm scared......


Does God hate me?  Why do I have to suffer?

Psalm 42:9-11

 I say to God my Rock, “Why have you forgotten me?  Why must I go about mourning, oppressed by the enemy?  My bones suffer mortal avony as my foes taunt me, saying to me all day long, “Where is your God?”  Why, my soul, are you downcast?  Why so disturbed within me?  Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God.

New Horizons Baptist Church: Prayers needed

If you live in Ohio, you know about the unfortunate events that have happened to a local Baptist church.  The New Horizons Baptist Church was set on fire after Stephen A. Beightler drove a stolen BMW into the building.  He was arrested and is facing six felony charges.  This is such a terrible event.

In a strange twist of fate, the remaining possessions, a sound system and some music equipment, which were stored in a barn on one the church's member's property, were destroyed in a barn fire this morning.

The church is going to meet in a local elementary school.  Pray that this small church gets back on its feet.


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In an unrelated note, if you came from the Lutherans.com website, WELCOME!  Thank you for taking a look here! I hope you learn something about me and maybe, something about yourself.  If you're confused as to some of what I say, just remember.  There's Jesse, and then there's JESSE.  Jesse is the nice one.  JESSE causes all the trouble.