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Showing posts with label forgiveness. Show all posts
Showing posts with label forgiveness. Show all posts

Tuesday, April 3, 2012

Psalms 130-139

Psalm 136 has a repetitive line in it (His love endures forever).

I was thinking about writing a song about this psalm, but found one that is just perfect.

Psalm 139:4
Before a word is on my tongue you know it completely, O Lord.


Matthew 6:8
...your Father knows what you need before you ask Him.


I'm doing a research project about Martin Luther and the Lord's Prayer in my Reformation and Enlightenment class at Capital University.  Here is a little snippet of the paper so far involving Matthew 6:8.


The fifth petition states, “And forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive those who trespass against us.” Luther states simply that we cannot lie to God.  He knows what we want before we pray.  Matthew 6:3 states, “…your Father knows what you need before you ask him.”  Ironically, this verse is just one phrase before the start of what is known as the Lord’s Prayer in the Bible, which is Matthew 6:9-13.  What does this petition mean?  According to Luther’s Small Catechism, it means that we should pray that God not hold our sins against us if we forgive others for their sins toward us.  


Monday, April 2, 2012

Psalms 120-129

I didn't post Psalms 110-119 because nothing there really struck me this time.  Maybe something will when I reread Psalms again later.

Psalm 122 is the basis for the Huber song "I Was Glad" that we sang at this year's Christmas Festival.  You can watch a version of it here.

Psalm 122 
I rejoiced with those who said to me, "Let us go to the house of the Lord."  Our feet are standing in your gates, O Jerusalem.  Jerusalem is built like a city that is closely compacted together.  That is where the tribes go up, the tribes of the Lord, to praise the name of the Lord according to the statute given to Israel.  There the thrones for judgement stand, the trines of the house of David.  pray of the peace of Jerusalem: "May those who love you be secure.  May there be peace within your walls and security within your citadels." [A citadel is a fortress that protects a town.] For the sake of my bothers and friends, I will say, "Peace be within you."  For the sake of the house of the Lord our God, I will seek your prosperity.


Please pray for the peace of Israel.  There need not be any fighting over land.


 This song is usually sung at the wedding of a royal couple, much like last year's Royal wedding between Prince William and Miss Catherine Middleton.


Thursday, March 29, 2012

Psalms 100-109

Psalm 102:8 
All day long my enemies taunt me...


Depression taunts me all day long.

Psalm 103:8 
The Lord is compassionate and gracious, slow to anger, abounding in steadfast love.


I'm reminded of a song the Capital University Chordsmen did last year during the Homecoming and the Spring concerts.  Craig Courtney's "Praise Him."

You can hear a demonstration here.

Psalm 103:13 
As a father has compassion on his children, so the Lord has compassion on those who fear him.


My church's adult Sunday School class is studying the Augsburg Confession right now.  This past week we talked about fear and trust in the Lord.  My pastor stated that when he was a little kid, he used to watch the Ohio State Buckeyes play basketball at night.  When they were on in Central time zone, it was actually past his bedtime.  About 20 minutes after going to bed, his dad would come and get him and take him to watch the Buckeyes.  My pastor stated that when his father's hand was on my pastor's arm, he felt like nothing could hurt him.  That was trust.

I try to go on at least one roller coaster ride whenever I go to an amusement park like King's Island.  I have a horrendous fear of heights, but I really want to get over it.  I absolutely fear going on rides that take me too high in the sky (I like the ones that are lower to the ground and spin you very fast).  I trust that the rides are completely safe, but I fear for my life when I'm on them.


Psalm 107:23-30 
Others went out on the sea in ships; they were merchants on the mighty waters.  They saw the works of the Lord, his wonderful deeds in the deep.  For he spoke and stirred up a tempest that lift high the waves.  They mounted up to the heavens and went down to the depths; in their peril their courage melted away.  They reeled and staggered like drunken men; they were at their wits' end.  Then they cried out to the Lord in their trouble, and he brought them out of distress.  He stilled the storm to a whisper; the waves of the sea were hushed.

That sounds awful familiar....

Mark 4:35-41 
That day when evening came, he said to his disciples, "Let us go over to the other side."  Leaving the crowd behind, they took him along, just as he was, in the boat.  There were also other boats with him.  A furious squall came up, and the waves broke over the boat, so that it was heavily swamped.  Jesus was in the stern, sleeping on cushion.  The disciples woke him and said to him, "Teacher, don't you care if we drown?"  He got up, rebuked the wind and said to the waves, "Quiet!  Be still!"  Then the wind died down and it was completely calm.  He said to the disciples, "Why are you so afraid?  Do you still have no faith?"  They were terrified and asked each other, "Who is this?  Even the wind and the waves obey him!"




Does this not prove that Jesus was God in human form?











Wednesday, March 28, 2012

Psalms 90-99

Psalm 91 reminds me of the song, "On Eagle's Wings."  Here is the William Jessup University Choir singing this version. It's not quite the version the Senior choir sings at church.

Psalm 91:various verses 
He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.  I will say of the Lord, "He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust..."  You will not fear the terror of the night, nor the arrow that flies by day...A thousand may fall at your side...For he will command his angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways; they will lift you up in their hands, so that you will not strike your foot against a stone...


Psalm 98 is the inspiration for the classic Christmas carol, "Joy To The World."

Psalm 98:4-9 
Shout for joy to the Lord, all the earth, burst into jubilant song with music, make music to the Lord with the harp, with the harp and the sound of singing, with trumpets and the blast of the ram's horn  -- shout for joy before the Lord, the King.  Let the sea resound and everything in it, the world, and all who live in it.  Let the rivers clap their hands, let the mountains sing together for joy; let them sing before the Lord, for he comes to judge the earth.  He will judge the world in righteousness and the peoples with equity.
This year's Capital University Christmas Festival's theme was "Joy!"  The second to last song, which was one of my favorites, was "Joy To The World."  Here is a version of it sung by the Mormon Tabernacle Choir.



Isaac Watts wanted this song to sound like an imitation of Psalm 98.  He didn't want to directly copy it.  

Psalms 80-89

Psalm 80:3, 7, 19 
Restore us, O God; make your face shine upon us, that we may be saved...Restore us, O God Almighty; make your face shine upon us, that we may be saved...Restore us, O God Almighty; make your face shine upon us, that we may be saved.


Repetition is important in poetry.  It's important because the author wants you to remember that line specifically.  I think this is an early form of a chorus or refrain.  Many modern songs today have choruses and refrains.

Psalm 81:2-3 
Begin the music, strike the tambourine, play the melodies harp and lyre.  Sound the rams horn at the New Moon, and when the moon is full, on the day of our Feast.


Any noise is joyous to the Lord!  See this post here on the Luther, Baptists, and Evangelicals blog.

I was reminded of this earlier this week when talking with a friend.  My friend stated that no matter what style of worship we go to, whether contemporary or traditional, we all believe in one thing: Jesus Christ is our Savior, and he died for our sins (I felt like I was punched in the face after my friend told me this).

Psalm 88 reminds me of a song, especially the last verse of the psalm.


Psalm 88:18 
You have taken my companions and loved ones from me; the darkness is my friend.








Psalms 70-79

Sorry folks.  I got hung up this week with all that has been going on.  Today I'll post three blogs, each on the days of Psalms that I've missed this week.


I need to highlight the entire 71st Psalm, but here are a few of the most striking.
Psalm 71:4-5 

Deliver me, my God, from the hand of the wicked, from the grasp of evil and cruel men.  For you have been my hope, O Sovereign Lord, my confidence since my youth.


I've always grown up in church, albeit a few months here and there where I didn't go for one reason or another.  My demons are depression, anxiety, wickedness, and worst of all, anger.  God please take these away from me.  I don't want to suffer anymore.

Psalm 71:9-15

Do not cast me away when I am old; do not forsake me when my strength is gone.  For my enemies speak against me; those who wait to kill me conspire together.  They says, "God has forsaken him; pursue him and seize him, for no one will rescue him."  Be not far from me, O God; come quickly, O my God, to help me.  May my accusers perish in shame; may those who want to harm me be covered with scorn and disgrace.  But as for me, I will always have hope; I will praise you more and more.  My mouth will tell of your righteousness, of your salvation all day long, though I know not its measure.




Psalm 72 is a psalm of royalty.  We will see one of these in a few days when we read Psalm 122.

Psalm 75:8 
In the hand of the Lord is a cup full of foaming wine mixed with spices; he pours it out, and all the wicked of the earth drink it down to its very dregs.


I didn't know what a dreg was, so I looked it up.  It has three similar definitions:

1.) sediment contained in a liquid or precipitate from it
2.) most undesirable part
3.) last remaining part

At first, I thought this passage reflected the third definition of dreg.  However, after looking over the Psalm again, I'm starting to wonder if it means the second definition.  This psalm is talking about the wicked of the earth.

Psalm 75:4 
To the arrogant I say, 'Boast no more,' and to the wicked, 'Do not lift up your horns.  Do not lift your horns against heaven; do not speak with outstretched neck.'"
Psalm 78:21-39, 41 
God's anger rose against [the people of Jacob and against Israel]; he put to death the sturdiest among them, cutting down the young men of Israel.  In spite of all this, they kept on sinning; in spite of his wonders, they did not believe.  So he ended their days in futility and their years in terror.  Whenever God slew them, they would seek him; they eagerly turned to him again.  They remembered that God was their Rock, that God Most High was their Redeemer.  But then they would flatter him with their mouths, lying to him with their tongues;  their hearts were not loyal to him, they were not faithful to his covenant.  Yet he was merciful; he forgave their iniquities and did not destroy them.  Time after time he restrained his anger and did not stir up his full wrath.  He remembered that they were but flesh, a passing breeze that does not return...Again and again the put God to the test; they vexed the Holy One of Israel.


If God won't let loose his full wrath, why can't I restrain myself?


Psalm 79:8-9 
Do not hold against us the sins of the fathers; may your mercy come quickly to meet us, for we are in desperate need.  Help us, O God our Savior, for the glory of your name; deliver us and forgive our sins for your name's sake.







Tuesday, March 27, 2012

What's Wrong With Me?

Since I've started this new medicine, Viibryd, I've had some up days and I've had some down days.

Whenever I've had up days, they've been very good.

Whenever I've had down days, they've been VERY bad.

Like on Sunday, I was having a down day.  Something upset me the previous week, and I realized that things were not right.

I've recently said some things that I shouldn't have.  I've been pushing people out of my life.  I ruined another friendship.  Possibly three friendships.

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Yesterday I asked my mother to come up to Capital.  We went to get pizza and talk.  I then skipped three classes (two yesterday and one today), and came home to relax.  I was experiencing some chest pains because of anxiety.  I slept about 14 hours.  I went to bed around eight o'clock last night and woke up around 10 o'clock this morning.

I've calmed down today and I'm ashamed about what I did.  I asked God to forgive me, but I'm still ashamed and hurt about what I did.  I'm scared......


Does God hate me?  Why do I have to suffer?




Psalm 42:9-11
 I say to God my Rock, “Why have you forgotten me?  Why must I go about mourning, oppressed by the enemy?  My bones suffer mortal avony as my foes taunt me, saying to me all day long, “Where is your God?”  Why, my soul, are you downcast?  Why so disturbed within me?  Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God.

Thursday, February 9, 2012

Why We Must Not Judge Others

One of the things that really bothers me about Christians is the fact that they all judge one another.  There is a very dear friend of mine here at Capital who I would classify as a fundamentalist.  This person always seems to be judging me whenever I bring up a religious topic to talk about.  He has this 'holier-than-thou' complex about him.  I visited a Buddhist temple a few months ago for a religion class, and he asked me why I went there instead of a church of a different denomination.  I responded by saying I wanted to experience another faith.

For example, whenever I bring up the issue of homosexuality in the church, he always gets very offensive and condemns those who are homosexual.  It bothers me when people condemn homosexuals because while Christians claim that homosexuality is a choice, science suggests otherwise.  As we all know, science is basically the explanation of how the world works.  I am reminded about a paper I did in Psychology about a year and a half ago.  Several professors here had a debate and Q&A session about homosexuality.  It was rather fascinating.  Here is the a review of the session below.




Jesse Harmon
Psych 110
Dr. Torello
November 5, 2010
The Biology of Homosexuality
            Homosexuality is, according to the Oxford Dictionary, “sexually attracted to people of one's own sex.”  The panel held at the Capital University Bridge of Learning lecture hall on November 4, 2010 at 7:30pm.  The moderator that night was a Capital University senior seeking a religion major, with Dr. Torello, Dr. Broh, and Dr. Anderson sitting on the panel.  Dr. Torello has a doctorate degree in biological psychology from The Ohio State University.  Dr. Broh has a Ph.D in sociology from The Ohio State University.  Dr. Anderson has a Ph.D in Zoology from Miami University.  This paper is a summery of what happened during the debate.
            The first question asked to the panel was if there were any differences between the brains of a homosexual man and a heterosexual man.  Dr. Torello responded that the hypothalamus of the brain is responsible for sexual behavior.  Simon LeVay, a neuroscientist, documented that the hypothalamus of a homosexual man resembles that of a heterosexual woman.  However, replications of LeVay’s studies failed to conclude this hypothesis.  LeVay again conducted this experiment, claiming that his hypothesis is correct, even though subsequent studies proved him wrong.  Years later, LeVay ‘came out of the closet’ as a homosexual himself, (which may or may not conclude that he made up his findings).   Other findings in the animal kingdom have found that 10% of male rams have hypothalamuses that are similar to those of female rams. 
            Heredity was the next question in the discussion.  Dr. Anderson stated that a 1993 study concluded that a ‘gay gene’ has been found.  However, after reviewing and attempting to reproduce the study in 1999, other scientists proved this theory false.  There is no connection between the X-Chromosome that had looked different in homosexual males and sexual orientation.  However, the scientists in the 1999 study were unsure about how the original study was conducted, because families were excluded for various reasons such as the father being a homosexual himself.  The 1999 study was a much larger study, having about 450 participants, while the 1993 study had a lot less.
            Is a person born into his or her sexual preference, and how does one’s development express his or her sexual orientation?  Dr. Broh responded that studies cannot be replicated, and that scientist can only make assumptions.  Dr. Torello went on to explain that there is no ‘light switch’ effect, where someone can be completely homosexual or completely heterosexual; instead, there is a large spectrum, which can in fact be measured using the Kinsey Scale.  Are homosexuals born the way they are?  Dr. Torello seemed to infer that people could be born homosexual.  He mentioned a study done on lab rats.  A mother rat was injected with testosterone into her uterus, much more than naturally produced.  When the pups were born, their gender was recorded.  When the pups sexually matured, the female rats sometimes attempted to mate with other female rats.  When a mother rat was injected with estrogen, the male pups that were sexually mature attempted, in their own unique way, to mount other male rats.  This possibly concludes that the amounts of testosterone or estrogen in someone could affect their sexuality preference.
            Dr. Anderson mentioned that in the first part of the 20th century, scientists considered homosexuality as being a mental disorder.  In the 1970s, however, this idea was thrown out.  There used to be many ‘gay fixing’ clinics around the United States, but since the seventies, the amount has significantly dropped.
            Dr. Anderson also mentioned a study that concluded that if a mother has multiple male children, the probability that the younger male child will be homosexual goes up a third of a percent; meaning that there is a higher chance the ‘baby brother’ of the family will be homosexual than the oldest male child.  This may have to do with the fact that younger sons tend to weigh less than their older siblings.   According to the study, 1/7 of homosexual men in North America have an older brother.  This study does not conclude any correlation between homosexuality and if that male had an older sister.  This theory hasn’t been tested since.
            A question from a young man in the audience was brought up.  Does a father figure have any influence on the chance someone is homosexual?  Dr. Broh took this question.  She said there was no consistent evidence that a father figure has anything to do with a child being homosexual.  Dr. Anderson stated, however, that the age of the mother could determine if the child is homosexual or not.  The younger the mother, the more likely the child could be homosexual.   A mother is more likely to have maternal stress if she is having her first child, then she is if she’s having her third.  This maternal stress might altar the natal environment that the baby is in.  Dr. Torello mentioned a study done by John Money, at John Hopkins University, that homosexual males act the way they do because they have lower testosterone levels in their bodies.  Money received funds for his experiment where he injected self-described homosexual males with testosterone, thinking that he might be able to change their sexual orientation.  However, the testosterone had a surprising effect; instead of changing the subjects’ sexual orientation, the testosterone instead made them more attracted to the same gender.  Dr. Broh also agreed with the other two panelists when she stated that hormone levels vary in every human.  Some males may have higher estrogen levels than other males, and some females may have higher testosterone levels than other females.
            An audience member brought up a surprising question.  Could the image of homosexuality be changed?  Dr. Broh rhetorically asked the audience member what he considered homosexuality.  Is the image based on appearance, behavior, sexual preference, or some other variable?  The identity of someone cannot be change.  Calling someone homosexual is a very vague description, according to Dr. Broh.  This question shocked me as well as a few other audience members because it seemed to have nothing to do with what this forum was about.
            Another unexpected question came from an audience member.  This question pertained to a statistic that Dr. Torello mentioned earlier in the discussion.  Dr. Torello mentioned that on average, ten-year-old boys know whom they are going to be attracted to later in life.  This audience member questioned Dr. Torello’s statement by saying that at the age of four, he was going to like females.  Low chatter began around the room as Dr. Torello attempted to clarify what he stated earlier, that on average, boys at the age of ten know whom they are going to be attracted to.
            The discussion went another route.  What is the home life versus the social impact on sexuality?  Dr. Broh said that children being raised in a single parent home, (single mothers or single fathers), has NO correlation to the outcome of a child’s sexual attractions.  Instead, if homosexual parents raise a child, there is a slight increase in the probability that the child will be homosexual, compared to a child being raised by a heterosexual family.  She concluded that the child who is raised by the homosexual family would have a larger range of choices in sexuality compared to a child raised by a heterosexual family. However, she stated that this has nothing to do with sexual orientation. 
            Could homosexuals deny their own sexuality? Dr. Torello said it’s possible.  Could someone be one hundred percent gay, or one hundred percent straight?  Again, the panel states that there is a spectrum on sexuality.  If someone was one hundred percent gay, they would most likely detest members of the opposite gender.
            What could be done to combat campus negativity toward homosexuality?  The panel discussed that with information collected, and if in fact an answer could be found about biology having anything to do with homosexuality, it could be used to help with the equal rights movement, and with anti-discrimination classes. 
             A question was brought up about ‘fixing’ homosexuality.  Dr. Torello quickly stated that homosexuality, “[is] not broken.”  A better question would have been, “If someone was homosexual, and they didn’t want to be homosexual, is there a way to ‘change’ them to be heterosexual?”
            There has been rigorous testing on male homosexuals, but not so much on female homosexuals.  The behavior of males tends to be more scrutinized than the behavior of females.  If two females hug, society sees it as perfectly normal.  However, if two males hug, some parts of society see it as being abnormal, wrong, or strange.  Dr. Torello asked the audience, if two females can hug, why can’t two males?
            The final thoughts on the three panelists summed everything up. Dr. Anderson stated that there are a lot of hypotheses and that a lot of testing still needs to be done.  Dr. Broh stated that sexuality is fixed at a certain point, and that nature versus nurture is a battle that needs to be solved.  The ‘way they are’ and ‘who they are’ is more important about ‘how they got there.’  Dr. Torello states, what does it matter?  What does it matter if we’re Italian, black, white, Jewish, or homosexual?  Some say that if we pray hard enough, our sexuality would change.  Dr. Torello states that God can’t change us. 
            A lot of work still could be done on the biological effects on homosexuality.  Why? There are much bigger issues to worry about such as cancer, diabetes, and other diseases that affect peoples’ lives much more tremendously than a sexual orientation.  In conclusion, sexuality is probably biological, but we still don’t know.  Will we ever figure it out?  Maybe, but maybe not.



I am reminded of several verses from the Bible.

Matthew 7:1, "Do not judge, or you too will be judged."  

Luke 6:37, "Do not judge, and you will not be judged.  Do not condemn, and you will not be condemned.  Forgive, and you will be forgiven."  

I have a serious problem with bullying, not only in school, but in society.  Read this article.  This is unacceptable.  As someone who has attempted suicide in the past, I find this appalling.  As mentioned in the article, for 13 year old Brittany, 7th grade was absolute hell.  It was also a nasty time for me.  I heard nothing but teasing from the kids in my class not only toward me, but toward other students.  I still have trouble respecting some of my classmates, which is probably why I don't contact them very much.  The things they said were just awful, and Logan-Hocking Middle School did nothing about it.

But I forgive them.  I've come to the conclusion that what I've experience exasperated my mental illness to this day.  I had a really thin skin, but it's grown thicker.  I'm now able to take that kind of thing, but it still bothers me.

John 8:7, "When they kept on questioning [Jesus], he straightened up and said to them, 'if any one of you is without sin, let him be the first to throw a stone at her."

I find it appalling that people within the church are condemning homosexuality, saying it's a sin.  The act of homosexuality is a sin.  We are ALL sinners.  EVERY SINGLE ONE OF US is a sinner.

Romans 14:10, "You, then, why do you judge your brother?  Or why do you look down on your brother?  For we will all stand before God's judgement seat.

As my friends know, I believe divorce to be a terrible thing, worse than the act of homosexuality.  Divorce splits apart families.  Of course there are some obviously good excuses to get divorced, such as spousal abuse, but if two people are getting divorced just to get divorced, that's not right. Divorce is not traditional family values.


The word abomination that's used in the Bible can be translated from many different words.  It does not convey the same meaning as we see it today.  Today, we see the definition of abomination as something that should be banned.  However, back in the day, abomination was seen as something just simply disliked.

1 Corinthians 4:5, "Therefore judge nothing before the appointed time; wait till the Lord comes. He will bring to light what is hidden in darkness and will expose the motives of men's hearts. At that time each will receive his praise from God."

It's not our job here on earth to judge others.  It's the Almighty God's job.  I have sinned.  I will be judged.  I have this immense fear that I will not be good enough to enter heaven because of my sins.

You may say that what I say here is blasphemy.  Go ahead.  Kick me out of the church.  I double-dog dare you.

It's what I believe.  Is the act of homosexuality a sin? Yes.  Is the homosexual person a sinner? Yes, but I'm a sinner, and you are a sinner as well.  Is homosexuality a sin?  No.

To all my homosexual friends, I love you all.  You are all very special to me.  Everyone is special to me.  May God grant you peace in your lives and be safe on your quests to find true love.


Monday, February 6, 2012

New Horizons Baptist Church: Prayers needed

If you live in Ohio, you know about the unfortunate events that have happened to a local Baptist church.  The New Horizons Baptist Church was set on fire after Stephen A. Beightler drove a stolen BMW into the building.  He was arrested and is facing six felony charges.  This is such a terrible event.



In a strange twist of fate, the remaining possessions, a sound system and some music equipment, which were stored in a barn on one the church's member's property, were destroyed in a barn fire this morning.

The church is going to meet in a local elementary school.  Pray that this small church gets back on its feet.


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In an unrelated note, if you came from the Lutherans.com website, WELCOME!  Thank you for taking a look here! I hope you learn something about me and maybe, something about yourself.  If you're confused as to some of what I say, just remember.  There's Jesse, and then there's JESSE.  Jesse is the nice one.  JESSE causes all the trouble.

What's Been Troubling Me

As many of you know, if you read my previous blog called "Doubt," you know that I suffer from clinical depression.  In September of 2007, I attempted suicide after a fight with my father.  I got treatment and new medicine.

Lately, I've been feeling down again.  I don't know why.  Could it be the stress of strenuous college courses?  Could it be the stress of knowing that I'm going to somehow pay off $100,000 debt in the future?  The stress of knowing that I need a new car by the end of the year for my professional internship, (I don't trust my current 1998 Chevy Monte Carlo. I just turned over 190,000 miles this past week).  Where will I live during the internship?  Will I be able to afford to eat healthy?  Will I get enough sleep?

My best friend and I aren't talking right now.  Two weeks or so ago, I posted a funny picture on his Facebook page.  He didn't get a chance to see it until later that night.  When he did, he was furious.  This person, with over 1000 friends on Facebook, unfriended me.  I was heartbroken.  We usually laugh at this kind of thing, but for some reason, he has this idea that he should be seen as perfect in everyone else's eyes.  That's what I don't understand.  Humans aren't perfect.  Am I over reacting by not talking to him?  Was it my fault?  What did I do wrong?  The picture was not offensive at all.  It was one of those pictures you would see on People Of Walmart.

My friend and I still haven't reconciled.  I don't know if I can.  I miss him so much.  He's my best friend.  He was there for me in September of 2007, and he was there for me during the whole liver transplant ordeal with my father.  He's been very supportive of me over the years.



There is still one friend that I know will always love me, no matter what happens.





I have to go to sleep.  I need to get up at six to go work out a little.