These past couple of weeks have been really rough on me. It all started with one large hymn analysis paper for my Hymns and Christian Tradition class that I am taking at Capital.
Sunday, March 17, 2013
Tuesday, March 5, 2013
"Go To Dark Gethsemane" Hymn Analysis
[This paper was written for the Hymns and Christian Tradition class at Capital University, where I am seeking a minor degree in religion.]
Monday, February 25, 2013
25 Things You May Not Know About Me
I talk a lot about my depression on here, but here are 22 other things you may not know about me.
2.) I want to get all my teeth replaced.
3.) I'm deathly afraid of heights. I'm even more afraid of falling from such heights.
4.) You may know I'm a huge country music fan. That's all I listened to when I grew up.
However, I do have a soft spot for cheesy pop songs ("Call Me Maybe!")
5.) I'm very critical about my music. I don't like performing my music in public by myself. I'd rather perform with other people where I can kinda hide in the background.
6.) I'm a foodie, (in case you couldn't tell).
7.) I hate mushrooms. GROSS!
8.) I haven't drank any pop/soda/cola since December 31, 2012. I haven't had any caffeinated pops, coffees, teas, since April 12, 2011.
9.) Lately, I've really gotten into composing hymns.
10.) Speaking of hymns, I have about 20 hymnals in my possession.
11.) If I could, I'd wear a suit and tie everyday.
12.) I'm obsessed with watches.
13.) I can't stand the sound of my voice. I think I sound like I'm always talking and singing through a soup can. I have voice problems from years of taking various medication, including Adderall which really dries the throat out.
14.) I'm celibate, and will remain so until marriage.
15.) I'm pretty good at sight-reading music, I think.
16.) I have eczema, a skin condition. I get these red, flakey patches on my joints when it's too hot out or too cold.
17.) I hate touching my toes.
18.) I love dress shoes. The higher the heel, the better. (Hello, Cuban Heels!)
19.) I love photography.
20.) I've met Tommy Cash. Johnny's brother.....twice.....
21.) I have three albums recorded.....but you will never ever hear them.
22.) I love old electronics. Gimme $500, and I'll go to the local antique store and buy a bunch of worthless crap just to say, "Hey! I have one of those!"
23.) I love dogs!!!!!
24.) Favorite restaurant? Burger King.
25.) I like cussing because it's good to let your inner rage out in a non-violent way.
Safe travels!!!
Friday, January 11, 2013
My Soul, My Life, My All
[The following is an essay I wrote for the Hymns and Christian Tradition class at Capital University, where I am seeking a minor degree in religion.]
Jesse Harmon
RELIG 380
Dr. Bryant
January 9, 2013
My Soul, My Life, My All
As
a hymn lover, I find it very hard to pick a particular favorite hymn of mine.
Old traditional hymns like “All Hail The Pow’r Of Jesus’ Name,” “Love Divine,
All Loves Excelling,” or, “Rock Of Ages, Cleft For Me,” have special
significance to me. Popular hymns are
what I call ‘pork chop’ hymns. Everyone
knows what pork chops taste like, and everyone knows what these hymns sound
like. Christmas hymns like “Joy To The
World,” and “What Child Is This?” fall into this category. Some of the newer hymns that I like are, “Oh
Lord, My God, When I In Awesome Wonder (How Great Thou Art),” and, “Baptized In
Water, Sealed By The Spirit.” These
hymns provoke thought in me. Some lines
from “How Great Thou Art,” include, “When
Christ shall come with shouts of acclamation, And take me home, what joy shall fill my heart...Then I
shall bow in humble adoration, and then proclaim, “My God How Great Thou
Art! Then sings my soul, my Savior God,
to thee…” (Lutheran Book of Worship
532). Only God knows what joy I will be
filled with when Jesus returns.
There
is one particular hymn that I am not a fan of, and I honestly don’t know
why. I don’t like the old hymn, “I Hear
The Savior Say (Jesus Paid It All).” I
think I’ve narrowed down why, but I’ll get into that later. The message of the song is fine. “For nothing good
have I, Whereby Thy grace to claim, I’ll wash my garments white, In the blood
of Calv’ry’s Lamb,” (jesuspaiditall.png). That, to
me, is gorgeous poetry. I couldn’t have come
up with something better myself. I
once attended a particularly bad Bible study group, and this was one of the
songs that they sung on occasion. I figure
this really boils down to my irrational prejudice against taking an old hymn
like this, and reworking it to sound contemporary, (I’ve always had this
thought that if I wanted to see a rock concert, I’ll go to Tootsies Bar on Friday
and Saturday nights; not to church on Sunday mornings.) This group I attended was awful for my
pursuit of a relationship with Christ.
The people didn’t seem to want to take it seriously. They had bad theology. “Jesus Paid It All,” will forever, in my
mind, be linked to this group, and it’s unfortunate that it is. There is a minor 6th (the words “it all,” and “a crim[son]” in the chorus).
This is somewhat difficult for me, as I have a tendency to overshoot
notes at times.
As
I mentioned before, it’s hard for me to buckle down and pick a specific hymn
that I like the most, although “When I Survey The Wondrous Cross,” first came
to mind. I have two versions of this
hymn, one from the green Lutheran Book of
Worship (copyright 1978), and another from the cranberry Evangelical Lutheran Worship hymnal
(copyright 2006). In the green LBW, the hymn setting is “Rockingham Old,”
by Edward Miller, (number 482). I am
more used to singing this one in church because we still use these hymnals
fairly regularly, (alongside With One
Voice, and the Baptist inspired Worship
Hymnal, published by LifeWay Christian Resources). Two semesters ago in April 2012, the
Chordsmen, the all-male ensemble at Capital University, and the Women’s Chorus
at Capital University did a version of “When I Survey The Wondrous Cross,” that
used the tune, “Hamburg,” by Lowell Mason.
I realized how much better a tune this was than “Rockingham.” I pulled out the ELW and found “Hamburg” in it, (number 803). I find “Hamburg” to be easier to sing to the
lyrics. In “Rockingham,” the note for
the word ‘died’ is suspended over
into the next beat, which I find more difficult at the end of a phrase. It sounds as if the singer stumbled on a rock
and fell. There are also some difficult
intervals in this version such as on the word ‘count but,’ which goes from a D to an F, (major 6th) to
a G#, (minor 3rd). There is no larger interval in “Hamburg” than
a major 3rd. Everything seems
to fit together perfectly. “Rockingham,” sounds like it was written at one
time, and the lyrics were written at another time, and then slopped together
and stuck in a book. “Hamburg” seems to
have been written with the
lyrics.
The
Gilbert Martin version that the Chordsmen and Women’s Chorus sang was
absolutely beautiful. I knew this would
be one that stuck with me forever. It slowly builds to the final “My soul, my life, my all!” When we did this in April of 2012, I knew it
would be a while before I sang in a choir for a long time. I was taking a semester off from Capital
University to attend another school for a while, and then go to Nashville,
Tennessee for an internship at a recording studio. There were many times that I wonder, “Why am
I doing this? What is the point in all
this college crap?” I sometimes feel God
say, “I understand. I know what you’re
going through.” Then I remember the
opening verse to this hymn, “When I
survey the wondrous cross, on which the prince
of glory died, my richest gain I count but loss, and pour contempt on all my pride.”
Why do I stress about sissy stuff like college work, when God put his
very own son to death?
Both hymns deal
with Jesus’ death on the cross, and how his love for us put him on it. “Sin
had left a crimson stain, he washed it white as snow,” comes from “Jesus
Paid It All.” “Sorrow and love flow mingled down…” comes from verse from “When I
Survey The Wondrous Cross.” Paul says to
the city of Corinth, “For
what I received I passed on to you as of first importance: that Christ died for
our sins according to the Scriptures…” (1 Corinthians 15:3). These two hymns express what Paul, and many
people for two thousand years have been saying; Jesus died for you. I think, as a nation, we are trying to
shove the cross away from us, when we really need to bring it back, and remember
why Jesus died on it, and why God put his own son to death. Jesus did this for you. He died for me. He died for Lowell Mason. He died for 26 children killed last month in
Connecticut, their families, and for everyone.
If the whole world could be mine, it would not be as big a gift as the
extraordinary love that Jesus had when he put down his life, and rose again,
for me.
Works Cited
Evangelical Lutheran Worship. Minneapolis, MN: Augsburg
Fortress, 2006. Print.
"Jesus Paid It All." Jesus Paid It All.
CyberHymnal, 21 Oct. 2007. Web. 08 Jan. 2013.
jesuspaiditall.png. N.d. Free HymnalWeb. 8 Jan 2013. <http://www.freehymnal.com/png/jesuspaiditall.png>.
Lutheran
Book of Worship. Minneapolis: Augsburg Pub. House, 1978. Print.
Saturday, December 15, 2012
HuffPost: 5 Things To Say and 5 Things NOT To Say
In the wake of this tragedy in Newtown, Connecticut, Huffington Post posted an article describing 5 things to say to children, and 5 things NOT to say. Here is a summary of the article.
5 Things NOT To Say:
This is just being honest. If you're looking to me for answers, YOU'VE DEFINITELY COME TO THE WRONG PLACE.
5 Things NOT To Say:
1. "God just needed another angel."
Not a good idea. Little children may think that someone dying means they become an angel. So, when grandma dies, she becomes an angel. This is NOT true. Matthew 22:30 says, "For in the resurrection they neither marry, nor are given in marriage, but are as the angels of God in heaven." Angels are not super humans. Angels are messengers from God. Although the specific time frame was never specified in the Bible about when angels were created, we DO know that God created them. Colossians 1:16-17 says, “For by Him all things were created, both in the heavens and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or dominions or rulers or authorities—all things have been created by Him and for Him. And He is before all things, and in Him all things hold together.” No, grandma is not an angel.
2. "Thank goodness you have other children," or, "You're young. You can have more kids."
This is simply a horrific thing to say to a grieving parent. It's like saying, "Don't worry. Kids can be easily replaced."
3. He/she was just on loan to you from God.
Apparently, God uses his power to create some happiness for you, and then decided to take your happiness away simply because he can.
4. God doesn't give you more than you can handle.
4. God doesn't give you more than you can handle.
Really? Why does God allow your neighbor's wife to leave him right after losing his children in a house fire, all the while after losing his job?
5. We may not understand it, but this was God's will.
How do you know God's will?
5 Things We Should Say
1. I don't believe God wanted this or willed it.
No, God doesn't want us to suffer. God has feelings too. He gets upset.
2. It's okay to be angry, and I'm a safe person for you express that anger to if you need it.
Be the friend that they can talk to about whatever needs to be talked about. In 1969, Elisabeth Kübler-Ross wrote in her book, On Death and Dying, that there are 5 stages of grief.
1.) Denial: I feel fine.
2.) Anger: Why me!? It's not fair!
3.) Bargaining: I'll do this to have a few more years to say goodbye.
4.) Depression: Why even bother going on? Just end it now.
5.) Acceptance: It's ok. I can't fight this, so I might as well prepare for it.
3. It's not okay.
It's really not okay to lose 30 people in a school shooting. Any sane person can deduce that.
4. I don't know why it happened.
5. I can't imagine what you are going through, but I am here to support you in whatever way feels best.
Just be a friend.
Please pray for those affected by not only this tragedy, but those affected by the tragedies of similar proportions in the past.
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