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Monday, February 25, 2013

25 Things You May Not Know About Me


I talk a lot about my depression on here, but here are 22 other things you may not know about me.

1.) I'm obsessed with my hair.  I like to color it and grow it out.  (I was voted best hair in high school because of my obsession).  I'm also afraid of losing my hair.


2.) I want to get all my teeth replaced.

3.) I'm deathly afraid of heights.  I'm even more afraid of falling from such heights.

4.) You may know I'm a huge country music fan.  That's all I listened to when I grew up.  
However, I do have a soft spot for cheesy pop songs ("Call Me Maybe!")

5.) I'm very critical about my music.  I don't like performing my music in public by myself.  I'd rather perform with other people where I can kinda hide in the background.

6.) I'm a foodie, (in case you couldn't tell).

7.) I hate mushrooms. GROSS!

8.) I haven't drank any pop/soda/cola since December 31, 2012.  I haven't had any caffeinated pops, coffees, teas, since April 12, 2011.

9.) Lately, I've really gotten into composing hymns.

10.) Speaking of hymns, I have about 20 hymnals in my possession.

11.) If I could, I'd wear a suit and tie everyday.

12.) I'm obsessed with watches.

13.) I can't stand the sound of my voice.  I think I sound like I'm always talking and singing through a soup can.  I have voice problems from years of taking various medication, including Adderall which really dries the throat out.

14.) I'm celibate, and will remain so until marriage.

15.) I'm pretty good at sight-reading music, I think.

16.) I have eczema, a skin condition.  I get these red, flakey patches on my joints when it's too hot out or too cold.

17.) I hate touching my toes.

18.) I love dress shoes.  The higher the heel, the better. (Hello, Cuban Heels!)

19.) I love photography.

20.) I've met Tommy Cash.  Johnny's brother.....twice.....

21.) I have three albums recorded.....but you will never ever hear them.

22.) I love old electronics.  Gimme $500, and I'll go to the local antique store and buy a bunch of worthless crap just to say, "Hey!  I have one of those!"

23.) I love dogs!!!!!

24.) Favorite restaurant? Burger King.

25.) I like cussing because it's good to let your inner rage out in a non-violent way.


Safe travels!!!


Friday, January 11, 2013

My Soul, My Life, My All


[The following is an essay I wrote for the Hymns and Christian Tradition class at Capital University, where I am seeking a minor degree in religion.]

Jesse Harmon
RELIG 380
Dr. Bryant
January 9, 2013
My Soul, My Life, My All
            As a hymn lover, I find it very hard to pick a particular favorite hymn of mine. Old traditional hymns like “All Hail The Pow’r Of Jesus’ Name,” “Love Divine, All Loves Excelling,” or, “Rock Of Ages, Cleft For Me,” have special significance to me.  Popular hymns are what I call ‘pork chop’ hymns.  Everyone knows what pork chops taste like, and everyone knows what these hymns sound like.  Christmas hymns like “Joy To The World,” and “What Child Is This?” fall into this category.  Some of the newer hymns that I like are, “Oh Lord, My God, When I In Awesome Wonder (How Great Thou Art),” and, “Baptized In Water, Sealed By The Spirit.”  These hymns provoke thought in me.  Some lines from “How Great Thou Art,” include, “When Christ shall come with shouts of acclamation, And take me home, what joy shall fill my heart...Then I shall bow in humble adoration, and then proclaim, “My God How Great Thou Art!  Then sings my soul, my Savior God, to thee…”  (Lutheran Book of Worship 532).  Only God knows what joy I will be filled with when Jesus returns.
            There is one particular hymn that I am not a fan of, and I honestly don’t know why.  I don’t like the old hymn, “I Hear The Savior Say (Jesus Paid It All).”  I think I’ve narrowed down why, but I’ll get into that later.   The message of the song is fine.  “For nothing good have I, Whereby Thy grace to claim, I’ll wash my garments white, In the blood of Calv’ry’s Lamb,”  (jesuspaiditall.png). That, to me, is gorgeous poetry.  I couldn’t have come up with something better myself.  I once attended a particularly bad Bible study group, and this was one of the songs that they sung on occasion.  I figure this really boils down to my irrational prejudice against taking an old hymn like this, and reworking it to sound contemporary, (I’ve always had this thought that if I wanted to see a rock concert, I’ll go to Tootsies Bar on Friday and Saturday nights; not to church on Sunday mornings.)  This group I attended was awful for my pursuit of a relationship with Christ.  The people didn’t seem to want to take it seriously.  They had bad theology.  “Jesus Paid It All,” will forever, in my mind, be linked to this group, and it’s unfortunate that it is.  There is a minor 6th (the words “it all,” and “a crim[son]” in the chorus).  This is somewhat difficult for me, as I have a tendency to overshoot notes at times.
            As I mentioned before, it’s hard for me to buckle down and pick a specific hymn that I like the most, although “When I Survey The Wondrous Cross,” first came to mind.  I have two versions of this hymn, one from the green Lutheran Book of Worship (copyright 1978), and another from the cranberry Evangelical Lutheran Worship hymnal (copyright 2006).  In the green LBW, the hymn setting is “Rockingham Old,” by Edward Miller, (number 482).  I am more used to singing this one in church because we still use these hymnals fairly regularly, (alongside With One Voice, and the Baptist inspired Worship Hymnal, published by LifeWay Christian Resources).  Two semesters ago in April 2012, the Chordsmen, the all-male ensemble at Capital University, and the Women’s Chorus at Capital University did a version of “When I Survey The Wondrous Cross,” that used the tune, “Hamburg,” by Lowell Mason.  I realized how much better a tune this was than “Rockingham.”  I pulled out the ELW and found “Hamburg” in it, (number 803).   I find “Hamburg” to be easier to sing to the lyrics.  In “Rockingham,” the note for the word ‘died’ is suspended over into the next beat, which I find more difficult at the end of a phrase.  It sounds as if the singer stumbled on a rock and fell.  There are also some difficult intervals in this version such as on the word ‘count but,’ which goes from a D to an F, (major 6th) to a G#, (minor 3rd).  There is no larger interval in “Hamburg” than a major 3rd.  Everything seems to fit together perfectly. “Rockingham,” sounds like it was written at one time, and the lyrics were written at another time, and then slopped together and stuck in a book.  “Hamburg” seems to have been written with the lyrics. 
            The Gilbert Martin version that the Chordsmen and Women’s Chorus sang was absolutely beautiful.  I knew this would be one that stuck with me forever. It slowly builds to the final “My soul, my life, my all!”  When we did this in April of 2012, I knew it would be a while before I sang in a choir for a long time.  I was taking a semester off from Capital University to attend another school for a while, and then go to Nashville, Tennessee for an internship at a recording studio.  There were many times that I wonder, “Why am I doing this?  What is the point in all this college crap?”  I sometimes feel God say, “I understand.  I know what you’re going through.”  Then I remember the opening verse to this hymn, “When I survey the wondrous cross, on which the prince of glory died, my richest gain I count but loss, and pour contempt on all my pride.”  Why do I stress about sissy stuff like college work, when God put his very own son to death? 
Both hymns deal with Jesus’ death on the cross, and how his love for us put him on it.  “Sin had left a crimson stain, he washed it white as snow,” comes from “Jesus Paid It All.”  “Sorrow and love flow mingled down…” comes from verse from “When I Survey The Wondrous Cross.”  Paul says to the city of Corinth, “For what I received I passed on to you as of first importance: that Christ died for our sins according to the Scriptures…” (1 Corinthians 15:3).  These two hymns express what Paul, and many people for two thousand years have been saying; Jesus died for you.  I think, as a nation, we are trying to shove the cross away from us, when we really need to bring it back, and remember why Jesus died on it, and why God put his own son to death.  Jesus did this for you.  He died for me.  He died for Lowell Mason.  He died for 26 children killed last month in Connecticut, their families, and for everyone.  If the whole world could be mine, it would not be as big a gift as the extraordinary love that Jesus had when he put down his life, and rose again, for me.










Works Cited
 Evangelical Lutheran Worship. Minneapolis, MN: Augsburg Fortress, 2006. Print.
"Jesus Paid It All." Jesus Paid It All. CyberHymnal, 21 Oct. 2007. Web. 08 Jan. 2013.
jesuspaiditall.png. N.d. Free HymnalWeb. 8 Jan 2013.       <http://www.freehymnal.com/png/jesuspaiditall.png>.
 Lutheran Book of Worship. Minneapolis: Augsburg Pub. House, 1978. Print.

Saturday, December 15, 2012

HuffPost: 5 Things To Say and 5 Things NOT To Say

In the wake of this tragedy in Newtown, Connecticut, Huffington Post posted an article describing 5 things to say to children, and 5 things NOT to say.  Here is a summary of the article.

5 Things NOT To Say:


1. "God just needed another angel."
Not a good idea.  Little children may think that someone dying means they become an angel.  So, when grandma dies, she becomes an angel.  This is NOT true.  Matthew 22:30 says, "For in the resurrection they neither marry, nor are given in marriage, but are as the angels of God in heaven."  Angels are not super humans.  Angels are messengers from God.  Although the specific time frame was never specified in the Bible about when angels were created, we DO know that God created them.  Colossians  1:16-17 says,  “For by Him all things were created, both in the heavens and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or dominions or rulers or authorities—all things have been created by Him and for Him. And He is before all things, and in Him all things hold together.”  No, grandma is not an angel.  

2. "Thank goodness you have other children," or, "You're young. You can have more kids."
This is simply a horrific thing to say to a grieving parent.  It's like saying, "Don't worry.  Kids can be easily replaced."
3. He/she was just on loan to you from God.
Apparently, God uses his power to create some happiness for you, and then decided to take your happiness away simply because he can.

4. God doesn't give you more than you can handle.
Really?  Why does God allow your neighbor's wife to leave him right after losing his children in a house fire, all the while after losing his job?
5. We may not understand it, but this was God's will.
How do you know God's will?



5 Things We Should Say


1. I don't believe God wanted this or willed it.
No, God doesn't want us to suffer.  God has feelings too.  He gets upset.

2. It's okay to be angry, and I'm a safe person for you express that anger to if you need it.
Be the friend that they can talk to about whatever needs to be talked about.   In 1969, Elisabeth Kübler-Ross wrote in her book, On Death and Dying, that there are 5 stages of grief.  

1.) Denial:  I feel fine.
2.) Anger:   Why me!?  It's not fair!
3.) Bargaining:  I'll do this to have a few more years to say goodbye.  
4.) Depression:  Why even bother going on?  Just end it now.
5.) Acceptance:  It's ok.  I can't fight this, so I might as well prepare for it.

3.  It's not okay.

It's really not okay to lose 30 people in a school shooting.  Any sane person can deduce that.

4.  I don't know why it happened.

This is just being honest.  If you're looking to me for answers, YOU'VE DEFINITELY COME TO THE WRONG PLACE. 


5. I can't imagine what you are going through, but I am here to support you in whatever way feels best.
Just be a friend.




Please pray for those affected by not only this tragedy, but those affected by the tragedies of similar proportions in the past.

Sunday, December 9, 2012

For What Reason Do You Worship or Pray To God?

I've been interning at a recording studio in Nashville, Tennessee for the past month and half.  While down here, I've been attending St. Timothy Lutheran Church in Hendersonville, just northeast of Nashville.

An interesting question came up in adult Sunday school last week.

"Do you worship and pray to God because you want him to give you something, or do you worship and pray to God because of who he is?"

Wow....that was like a punch to my face.  I never really thought about that.  Do I worship/pray to God because I want something, or do I worship/pray to God because he's God?

First of all, what do I want in general?

-A nice job
-A nice family
-A nice house
-A nice car
-To be healthy
-To be happy
-To be...
-To be...
-To be...

I can go on and on for days.

What if we don't get what we want?

"I want some of grandma's cookies, so I'll write her a letter. "
"No cookies, grandma?  I'm never going to talk to you ever again."

Only God knows what I've prayed for, and never received.

Here's a great story about what I'm talking about.

“Prayer is not about coming to the Lord to ask Him to give us anything we want. It’s about connecting with God on a personal level –and in the way He commands us to.”

He commands us.....hmmm....where have I heard that before?

Not again.  Are you going back to that freakishly-long Lord's Prayer post/paper/essay again?  Yes, I am.  God commands us to pray like this.

"Dear God above, please let me do YOUR will -- not my will.  Help me to do it here on earth.  Show me some spare time where I can read the Bible and pray to you more often.  Please forgive my sins, and the sins of others.  Don't let me fall back into sin, either.  Keep me away from Satan's power, and help me be closer to you, because you have the power to do all of this.  Amen."

During today's Sunday school class, we were talking about Ecclesiastes, and how negative it appears.  I  was struck while reading this last night.....

Ecclesiastes 1:12-18 
I devoted myself to study and to explore by wisdom all that is done under Heaven.  What a heavy burden God has laid on men!  I have seen all the things that are done under the sun; all of them are meaningless (Hevel= vanity, emptiness, false gods, shit), a chasing after the wind.....Then I applied myself to the understanding of wisdom, and also of madness and folly, but i learned that this, too, is a chasing after the wind.  For with much wisdom comes sorrow; the more knowledge, the more grief.

....but I want knowledge!  I pray to be smarter!  Chicks dig smart guys!  After reading this passage, I was reminded of the movie, Indiana Jones and the Kingdom of the Crystal Skull.   In this movie, Indie (Harrison Ford) and several others are captured by a group who want a crystal skull that Indie and his son, Henry "Mutt Williams" Walton (Shia LaBeouf), have.  Colonel Dr. Irina Spalko (Cate Blanchette), the antagonist, is determined to put the last Crystal Skull on the last incomplete crystal skeleton, because she believes a legend that the person who returns the skull will gain all the knowledge of the universe because she wants to utilize its power to better the Soviet Union's military.  Indie and his gang lets her put the skull back.  When she does this, her eyes catch on fire, and she disintegrates into dust because her brain can't comprehend what all is going on.  She overloads.

Why do we want to knowledge?  Why do we want to become like God?  Honestly, I don't think I want to know everything there is to know about everything.  I don't think I can take that kind of stress.  Look what happened to Bruce Noland (Jim Carrey) in Bruce Almighty.  He thought he could do a better job at being God (Morgan Freeman) than God did.  When God offered Bruce the job, he took it.  Bruce just couldn't deal with all the prayers being asked at once.  Bruce couldn't deal with people asking for petty things like, "Let me win the lottery," or, "Let me lose weight on the Krispy Kream diet."  I don't think I can deal with that kind of frivolousness.  

Can you?

"Daddy!  Daddy!  Daddy!  Can you get me a cookie?  Are we there yet?  Can we eat something?  Are we there yet?  Can I go potty?  I really need to potty!!!  She's pointing at me!  She's staring at me!  Are we there yet?  Are we there yet?!!!"

I guess this is all just a "ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ITS ALL ABOUT ME" kind of thing....the world revolves around ME.  I've seen a teenage girl in a t-shirt that says, "The World Revolves Around Me."  I can't help but think how sorry she's going to be when she moves out of mommy and daddy's house and can't get a job because she's too much into herself, and that the boss really isn't going to give one crap about her.  I'm sure God gets pretty frustrated with me and everyone else who constantly whine about "me, my, mine," prayers.

I don't think it's a bad thing to ask for green lights between the house and work, but just be aware of what you're praying for, and leave these things for last.  Ask God for what is most important:  That you have a good, solid relationship with him.  After being forgiven, you might get all green lights, but you're stuck behind Old Lady Jones who is 90 years old and can't see over the steering wheel and dashboard in her ginormous 1984 Buick.

Maybe there's a reason Old Lady Jones is holding you back from work.  Maybe while on your way to work, you get a call from your boss that you don't have to come in today for one reason or another.  If you were at work when that happened, how much more frustrated would you be than if you were halfway there?  ("I drove 30 miles for this?")  You can just zip a U-turn and head right back home, take your pants off, and flop back into bed!


Thank you, God, for being patient with me.  Thank you for putting your own son to death to save us from our sins.  Thank you for being you.


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If I don't see you again for a while,  have a MERRY CHRISTMAS and a Happy New Year!!!

Is Jesus Real?


Interesting Q/A from The Lutheran Hour broadcast on Sunday mornings on 650AM WSM.

For the past few weeks they've been answering questions about Christmas.  Today's question was in regards to the actual date of Christ's birth.  Wasn't December 25th a pagan festival?

-Jesus' real life, real death, and real resurrection are important for our lives.  However, I don't think it really matters what date it was on, as long as it was completed.

-Early Christians didn't have a specific date to celebrate the birth of Christ (there was no Twitter back then).

@TheRealGod4857*: Yay!! Son just #born! He will somday #save u.


Here is what really interested me.  Just because Dec. 25 is borrowed from a pagan festival, this proves Christianity is another human-created religion trying to get power.

There are over 24,000 pieces of documents of eye witness accounts and facts.  

There are only 49 ancient documents about Aristotle.

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